Have you ever passed out in your life? What was it like? Well, this is going to be one hell of a weird post as I will not be talking anything about this life – but the other life. And I’ll share my experience of it to the best of my memories :/

You may feel free to connect to this post, raise your hand in consent or may simply say What the Words ?! :/ But for me, this is and will always remain one hell of an experience!

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So I was given general anesthesia twice in my whole life to deliver babies. The first time, my condition was critical and although, the anesthesiologist had asked for my preference between epidural (local anesthesia around spinal cord) or the full one – I went for the later option. Because of some complications, my energy was too low as my survival chances were bleak. I voluntarily said bye bye to this world, recited Kalima and entered operation theater (OT). This was more than two years ago.

That day, I was too exhausted to experience what motherhood was like, although I had heard some juicy stories about seeing your baby for the first time blah blah blah. Right after I entered OT, they gave me a heavy dose. So as soon as the drug shot entered my bloodstream, it was an instant black out.

I didn’t wake up post delivery in the OT, only had a blur vision when I was shifting to post-operation ward. Then I woke up again sometime later when I was shivering with cold, asked for a warmer room temperature and a couple of blankets and then finally came back to my senses after one full night sleep. My first one was born at 0135 PST.

It was indeed a heavy anesthesia dose. And hence, I don’t recall any memory while being in that state.  By the way, being under the spell of anesthesia is way different than being sedated. I have experienced both. Sedation is a very normal sleep state but if you are given a light dose of anesthesia – then my friend!  you are on a trip to the la – la land :p

So the real journey began earlier this month when I rushed to the hospital to deliver my second offspring. I was in a labor for quite sometime and the doctor asked me if I wanted to wait for the normal delivery or go for the section again, and I opted for the later.

This time around since everything was normal, I wanted to get the epidural. But both the surgeon and the anesthesiologist somehow convinced me for GA. They gave me an optimum light dose and then it all started :/

As soon as the needle punched in, the other life began. It was a huge white building, there were thousands of spirits – all white and hazy with no faces – but there was a lot of noise. None of which was audible. I was amongst them. The room was too lit to make any sense out of it but the spirits had crowded it so much that there was hardly any space to move. I have never seen this much light, and that kind of noise. May be, everybody was speaking at a different wavelength. Quite surprisingly, the brain was alive and functional but too much noise started exhausting it. It was trying to concentrate on what was being said and only during that instant I heard my surgeon shouting out my name….

Wake Up Hina, Wake Up!

I was still in the OT. I opened my eyes – I was numb. I felt my body shifting from the OT bed to the stretcher and somebody moving me out of it. I had no control over myself. Yet, the brain had started working.

So that was my section experience!

You may not relate to it but I have figured out some basics about the other life. And here are my two cents.

1. Brain will remain alive – here and there!
2. The other world may not carry the weight of our bodies. It will be the spirit and the words.
3. We will not understand anybody over there – too much chaos, too much energy, too much light and too many people!
4. We will experience levity.
5. We will have no control over anything!

I wanted to write a light-hearted post after a month’s long break but I really really had to share this as well. I was there and then I came back but guys, the experience was mind-boggling :O)