What I miss in my life, these days, is a routine – but then they say that routine is boring. But at the same time, having a routine means that you are living an uninterrupted healthy life. nahin ? So much is going on at all times that it really takes me a while to just absorb what is happening around me and then there are constant decisions to make…

It is interesting how so many people take decisions for you, while you don’t know and you are young. And then, suddenly, you find yourself in a position to make decisions for everyone around you – to run your home. I made a last post about women, their power – the tone that they can set. Actually, that sense of realization is coming back to me really hard these days…but not in a way to feel arrogant about it. Actually, this makes me more mindful. In which sports should my kids be participating, should I get that surgery done? What should they eat during the snack time? Ok, enough of tv – let’s do something else!

Before diving into motherhood – I honestly didn’t know how serious this business is 🙂

When you don’t have something, the craving kills you like no one’s business but certain realizations only come when you are going through it. And that doesn’t mean you are being ungrateful – I just want to talk my mind out here. There are so many things that you want as a person – but a home-runner is a home-runner. To nurture life, you have to give your own – full stop !

Right now, I want to write another post – kyun k – zor ki aa rahi hay – lol.

But, I’m not gonna write anything right now. I need to prepare the lunch. Yesterday, was a bad food day. Things I hate to do – but then I do because I have no other choice. Yesterday, I literally threw three meals…coz kids were not eating them. And I was trying to finish it with a fear of God that it shouldn’t get wasted. But then when I had that cauliflower with potatoes for three times in a row, I though that I’ll soon become a cauliflower myself if I wont throw it.

That’s why I need to make a serious apology to God, to people who don’t have food, and people who like cauliflower. I’m sorry!

And yes, freezing the food was not an option. It meant that in a week’s time, I would be again eating it by myself. I didn’t want to put myself into some kind of a challenge yet again. Zeeshan could have helped here. But in case you don’t know, me and my husband are doing a long distance this year. We are not separated – I mean yes, we are separated, physically – out of choice. But not bad out-of-choice, good out-of-choice. Am I making any sense? He got a job and we both decided that he must leave and I should stay. Now, this is a routine plan. I know what my life is – because I understand this. And I’m actually living comfortably in this new set-up. I am settled and at peace. Thank you.

Last year, he went to Pakistan to attend to his parents.  His father passed away and it took him a lifetime to come back home. That was not a planned trip. I didn’t know the future – so it was difficult. Those three months were difficult – because nothing was certain. See, how our brain works. If we know what we gotta do – then we do it. But a minute more than what we plan is a nightmare.

So I come back to my first narrative – it is good to have a routine. A routine of life. Some sudden interruptions are welcome – but a constant disorientation surely means that something is not right.

So today, with this intention, I wish you all and myself a healthy regular life 🙂

See yeah – on a side note, leaving to make some chicken !